18 Inch Jump South

For a couple of months I have been examining myself. I have realized that I have not had reverence towards the Lord like I need too. I have been praying out loud to the Lord and I have been looking up the attributes of the Lord. Now, granted I know the word, I understand it mentally, I am not sure it is planted in my heart. So Sunday, I was on my couch reading this bible study about Sanctification and Holiness. In the bible Study the author writes about Jesus' death on the cross. He writes,"The sinful nature which still resists God has been legally dealt with. God has no program for this sinful nature except crucifixion. He does not want to educate it, to heal it, to accept it or to love it. It must be killed, It has been killed, legally, at the cross. Our old man was crucified with him." At the moment of reading this the knowledge of this very idea jumped from my head straight to my heart. I understood it, if I am sinning continually, God does not want me to go to the website to educate myself on the sin, or look up all the books on it. He doesn't even want me to try to understand why I keep doing it. He wants me to focus on the Word of God and let the Word correct me. Not focusing on the sin, but on the Word of God. All my life I have been focusing on the wrong thing. I have been blaming this person or that person in my past, or thinking it was a generational curse or something. Trying to understand why I kept sinning in certain areas of my life. But now I totally understand why Jesus died for me, my sins are already dead, I need to repent and then not focus on it again. And in that reality, I repent and then I know that guilt and shame does not have a place in my life, because Jesus had to die and rise again for me to live. I belong 100% to Him and I believe that. I am no longer going to say that I do not have reverence for the Lord, because after Sunday I look at Him with more reverence than ever.