Teenagers

I have to share this, Sunday I was doing some extra cleaning. I was using Brasso to clean the brass around the house. Well my teenager wanted to clean something of his. I showed him how to use the brasso and I received a phone call. As I was on the phone, my son came in the room with rubber gloves, and a surgical mask on and he was holding the Brasso can as if it could explode any minute. He really caught me off guard and I started laughing at him. Oh the things we do to protect ourselves. I really am going through struggles and this reminded me of resisting the devil. We always need to cover ourselves with the word and prayer. The Lord will protect us and we have to ask. Also, remember that Satan can not read your mind, so when you resist the devil you have to yell out loud. And remember to always praise the Lord.

Attitude?!

So, I am sitting in church tonight and feeling a little down. I have not been able to walk the last couple of days because of rain. I also think food looks a little more tempting. But anyway, Pastor Mike starts his sermon on attitude. Can you believe it? He starts to talk about Joesph and his dreams, if he had listened to people down his dreams he could of become a negative person(Genesis 37). And really through all the things that Joesph goes through, he could of became negative. But, he stay steadfast and waits. Pastor Mike also talks about the Israelites and the ten spies, who come back and talked fear about the promise land. The only two that are stead fast are Joshua and Caleb. They both knew that God would get them through, and help them conquer the land. But because of fear, this caused all the rest of the Israelites to loose out on the blessings. Joshua and Caleb are the only two that will receive this blessing of the promise land. (Numbers 13:26-33). And oh my goodness let us not forget David as a boy, who knew that the Lord would help him defeat Goliath. Come on, how awesome is that. The knowledge and boldness of David, wow I would love to be like that. But of course, that is the point isn't it? I have a choice. I can choose to be negative or positive, I can choose to be bold or weak. Well I choose to be positive and bold, strong and loving. My words, body language, faith, lifestyle etc, hinges on the Lord and my attitude towards His word. I would like to see my boldness like Paul. He had so many things happen to him and he still was bold and knew his Lord. He even called himself a prisioner of Jesus Christ. He was ready to go to Heaven at any time. But, Paul also knew he had a task to fill, and that was to reach people for Christ. So, we need to get out of our little zones and start reaching people for Christ. I am going to do that. God bless anyone who wants to join me.

My Words

I have really heard lots of sermons on the "way that I speak, will be the way that I live". At first, I thought this was really ridiculous. So, I put it to the test, and sure enough it is true. Not only is it true in the world, but God has alot to say about our words. Ephesians 4:29 "Let no corrupt communication proceed out of your mouth, but that which is good for the use of edifying, that it may minister grace unto the hearer." The words that we say every day should be uplifting and loving. If we are always complaining, that will be the life we live. I am choosing to be more uplifting. See, we are to encourage and love one another. I really do not want to be a downer. Up lift your words and the Lord will show us a blessed life. Look up the word, "word" in the concordance and you will see lots of them. God even said in Jeremiah 1:9 "Then the Lord put forth his hand, and touched my mouth, and the Lord said unto me, behold, I have put my words in thy mouth." Proverbs 18:21 "Death and life are in the power of the tongue: and they that love it shall eat the fruit there of." Well, that just clinches it, I am going to be more up beat and loving, encouraging my family and friends to be more love and not turned down. God is good and He loves me.

Submitting

I have been meeting on Saturday mornings with a group of wonderful women. We are doing a bible study called "How to be my Husband's help meet". It has been really interesting. But, not as interesting as this last chapter. It has been talking about being submissive to our husbands. But this is not even close to the sermon that our minister gave last Sunday. Which of course was on the same thing. I think I am seeing a pattern? But anyway, I am really thinking about my role as a wife to Jeff. Yes, I have been controlling and I have not had a good respect for Jeff. But, I think I have not had a good respect for my dad, either. See, I do not care if you are single, married etc, if you do not have a respect or forgiveness with your dad, you will not reverence God and or husband. I know having a good relationship with mom is important, but your dad will determine how you treat your husband. I have been really looking at this. Dad is a loving man, but he did not stand up. I think is was mom, she was a feminist who controlled the family. I realize that I am a women of God, he wants me to be meek and loving, not controlling. And Jeff deserve a loving wife and not a complaining and brute wife. So, tonight after I listened to last weeks sermon, I just let go. I have always thought that God was going to make me a minister's wife. I am not sure if this is me or God. It really does not matter, because I need to get out of the way and submit and humble myself before God. He know and I have to let him work and I do not need to get in the way. So, tonight I gave it to Him. I am not going to be full of pride or discontent. I release it all to Him.
As far as my husband, I am letting go of resentments and bitterness. I am going to be Jeff's wife and support and encourage all that I can. Because, Jeff deserves that from me.

John 8:32

Journey's

I was talking to a friend today, I had not seen her since January. While we were talking I was reminded about who I was in January. Oh, I knew the Lord. But my relationship with the Lord is so strong. I am really looking at the Lord with such a different view. I guess I always thought that no matter how hard I tried to obey God, he would not be satisfied with me. But this is not true. When Jesus sacrificed himself, he accomplished more then I could ever know. Like for instance, last month I was in the hospital. I have been really struggling with overeating and food addications. Well, as I was laying in the hospital bed, I started crying out to the Lord. I felt that I needed to just humble myself and let Jesus in. I spoke in the spirit and I started looking at Jesus with love and wanting peace. At that moment, I really believe that Jesus set me free. He delievered me from overeating, drinking soda and bindging. I have been out of the hospital now for a month and I feel great. I have walked alot, worked with weights and I am not over eating or bindging. I have had one soda and I do not even desire sweets. See, when Jesus died on the cross, he died for more than forgiveness, sacrific or healing. He died for peace, joy and love that I need to show every day. Telling people about him and living a life of his. If I can not do the will of God, how can I tell people about Him. God is more. 1 Cornthians 9:27 tells us that we must put out bodies into subjection, or we will not be good witness. Examine your life every day and release it to God.

Rain

I was laying in bed early this morning and listened to the thunder rolling in. I really enjoy this time. I love thunderstorms and the rain. The rain always reminds me of growing up in Washington State. I love the smell of rain and the sound of it on the windows. So, as I was laying there listening to the silence in the house, but the pattern of rain hitting the window, I started thinking about God and rain. First of all, God created rain(Genesis1:6-7,Genesis6). Then He uses rain as an analogy of blessings and righteousness(Hosea 10:12 and Heb 6:7 ). I feel so comforted that God will bless us, especially when we yield(Lev 26:4) and let the rain of God falls upon us. He also uses rain as a use of the miracles(1 Kings 18:17-46, James 5:17-18) that He does to prove his power and His love. So, the next time you hear the rain, listen to it and feel blessed by what God can use.

Jeremiah 5:24 "Neither say they in their heart, Let us now fear the Lord our God, that giveth rain, both the former and the latter, in his season: he reserveth unto us the appointed weeks of the harvest."

Revelation

I really believe that the Lord has some major changes in our life. The year 2007 is going to be a pinnacle year. I am going to let my lite shine. I have heard Kenneth Copeland state that this is the year for the "open door." Another minister stated that this is the year that God will answer our questions and manifest confessed prayers. But as I seek the Lord, I see old habit forming. I am really going to go to the Lord and seek Him for the guidance that I need. I have also had revelation of my role as a mother, I have two wonderful children. Luke is so funny, I laugh sometimes and scold him about his actions or comments. I also find myself being Little harder on our daughter. I really never knew what imaginations were until I had Luke and Melanie. They are fantastic with their imaginations and the way they play. It is amazing to me. I really hope that God will direct the ways that I look at Luke and Melanie. I seek more love, joy, peace, patients, gentleness and kindness for them. God will do it, he will show me. Seek the spirit and he will guide.

February 19th, 2007

I started this journal entry today. I started to type some great sermons, but I was becoming over whelmed so I just left it alone. I realized that being so worked up or worried is not adding anything interesting to my life. I have noticed that sometimes I can be so relaxed that I put my self to sleep and other times I am so worked up that I feel like I am going to burst. The constant in my life is Jesus, praise Him. I really believe that if it had not been for my Lord, I would of been somewhere in the world wandering aimlessly looking for something. Jesus balances me, He disciplines me and he gives me goals to look for. I really believe to this day that Jeff is a gift from Jesus. A girl from Washington State meeting a guy from Iowa. How awesome is that. I am also convinced that booth of our children are from Jesus. At the time we knew of Jesus, but we were not serving Him, now I know different. Jesus will get you through so much, he will take pain, bitterness, financial strain etc from you, all I have to do is ask or give it to Him. He loves me and He has a master plan for us here, I am going to wait on Him. I have recently realized that the mouth and tongue can get you into so much trouble. I have chosen today to be more positive and serve the Lord in a positive and uplifting way. I am going to praise Him in all my ways today and honor Him. Jeremiah 23:28 "The prophet that hath a dream, let him tell a dream; and he that hath my word, let him speak my words faithfully. What is the chaff to the wheat? saith the Lord."